Madeline Neo's Blog

finally i have the time to do some blogging.

i had 25 computers to myself just now. so i used 2 computers to watch The Hills. which i eventually only managed to watch 2 parts. oh well, i was alone in the room painting my nails anyway.

went to zouk for Halloween. here are the pictures… (facebook for more. )

Would you rather

1) fall deeply in love, have extremely strong passionate love, but it is considerably shorter  OR

2) fall in love, have everything rather smooth sailing, very vanilla, but last a long time   OR

3) be loved, be with someone you don’t necessarily is in love with, but you know you will have a comfortable life with

which one will you choose?

won’t we all face this at some point of our lives?

but how would you know if he/she is the right one for you? when you no longer have the desire to seek a better other half? or you will just know it when you have found The One? I would like to think it is both. when you have found the one, you would no longer seek a better one, and you know right away he/she is perfect for you.

that settles the problem at your side, what about your other half?

how do you really know how he/she really feels deep inside? something he/she might not even realise, but it is the underlying fact.

Why Men Stay With Miss Wrong, by David Smiedt, Cleo Singapore November issue stated some very good points that are worth considering.

1) What he/she doesn’t know won’t hurt him. In order to reap benefits in being with someone, you have to bear with all his/her unpleasantness and compromise.

2) Afraid of being lonely. We leap for the first single and available person who enters our lives. This means that even though you know he/she is not right for you, whatever, i have enough of being single.

3) Sex. He/She is really good in the bedroom.

4) The materialistic characteristic in all of us. Whether you are a guy wanting a hot girl as your completing-the-picture piece or you are a woman wanting a preferably hot guy to give you what you need (in other words, monetary needs)

5) Ego. We don’t want to be proved wrong. What we need is “yes, you were right”. Same goes for the men/women we choose, you want to stick with the guy/girl to prove to everyone that they are wrong, even though deep down you know you deserve better. (I personally will never do this btw, sometimes you are too foolish in love to see what people around you are seeing. So it is always better to listen to what they have to say and evaluate.)

6) (no better way to rephrase this, would like to just quote everything out because it is perfect. Warning: this article is written by a man for women.) “There are certain type of woman who is so utterly desperate to be in a relationship that she is willing to compromise on the respect she deserves from the man is question. Man recognizes this and continues to reap benefits that comes with having a girlfriend without actually having to put in the effort that would normally be expected of him under such circumstances. She is not going anywhere and he is perfectly fine with it. She has no backbone and that is the way he likes it. This says a great deal about both parties but neither can really bring themselves to admit it.” (Same applies to a female perspective. How perfectly does this describe some relationships?)

7) Although he/she may not be the right one for you, and you know you wouldn’t end up marrying him/her, he/she makes life really comfortable in the mean time. (she is extremely nice, cooks, cleans, washes…. he is extremely nice, showers you with gifts, opens your door, pulls out your chair….)

8 ) Convenience. There are people out there who are willing to coast along in a relationship that is not so great but not extremely horrible either. In other words, which basically sums it all up is that – you would rather stick with satisfactory than take the risk of finding better. “That tragedy of this situation is that the poor girl has no clue that this guy just can’t be bothered to break up with her and as time ticks by, is probably making the plans of a long-term relationship.”

If you think about it carefully, the above points do interlink. Doesn’t this article make you worry? I told myself if there are two quotes that i stand by, it will be “what goes around comes around” and “live today like there is no tomorrow and live life to the fullest” which basically means don’t worry too much about the future and what it will bring, be concerned about today and leave tomorrow for someone else to worry about. The most important thing is that you are happy, and that is all that really matters.

in my school’s business centre now, D409. we have nothing to do yet. basically, we are just siting around, talking, using the internet, and doing anything and everything. but we are forced to stay in school until 5.30pm everyday. it’s almost ridiculous. i am listening to the radio, eating Wang Wang milk balls (btw, if i continue doing this, i will get really fat) and writing this. this is how i am going to spend 9 weeks, 18 weeks?

i really dont see the point in doing this, we are suppose to do marketing research, i have would very much rather do event planing. at least that is what i am interested in. but i wouldnt want to be posted to call centre or Cheers, those are irrelevant.

so, tomorrow i really need to buy a good storybook and read. meanwhile, i will highlight the lovely phrases from the new earth.

what is worse is that my phone doesnt have radio service, so i am borrowing my friend’s phone. what stupid blackberry. its way more entertaining to listen to radio than my ipod. so i guess i have to find my oldoldold phone .

(Notice how i tell you every single fucking detail? this is how bored i really am. No, we are not allowed to play games online. )

Even though i have nothing to do in school everyday, you still be too tired to go out, let alone hit the gym. but i guess after a good sleep tonight(lack or it the past few days) i will be ready to hit the gym after school. or maybe, after the marketing research projects start coming in, i will be busy, soon. hopefully. fingers crossed.

have a presentation later. made new friends. putting my feet on the table, and eating away.

alright, i have run out of things to say. probably a little bit of too tired to type.

later.

“It is all or nothing”

i literally just sat down from the gym, cleaning, washing and making juice.

back to work. ultra a lot of messages. i think work can temporarily take my mind off certain things.

oh God, please help me.

(ps: i have never dropped that much much hair before. i am so serious. i am going to start eating really healthily, no salty stuff. before i seek medical attention. omg. that explains why my hair is straight at the above picture. sucks, i am going through mid-life crisis already?! )

Halloween is coming. Have you thought of what  to be yet? I have picked up my costume! You have got to keep coming back to find out what the outfit is.

Will do some situps later to stimulate, hopefully.

Singapore Idol is really really painful to watch this evening, did not mange to sit through the hour and a half.Especially the guys, seriously, painful. We already know who is going to win. Just get it over and done with. And i am sorry, i don’t want to listen to anymore Michael Jackson.

I wonder – Is trying to impress people you don’t even know really worth it to be a sellout? I mean, seriously, you just make me look down on you more than ever. It is not worth it, is it? Appreciate what you have now, because i don’t think you are going anywhere. Good luck with that. Don’t ever let fame and fortune get into your head. That is probably only one word to describe you, DELUSIONAL.

Work has been going surprisingly well (my sidejob). Alright, i’ll get back to my cosmo. Have to get up early tomorrow for my other job. i know, i am a hard worker. ha!

by the way, i look forward to next week. Argh, can’t wait!

( i pigged out again, not good, not good at all.)

” Our kid will basically look like a Chinese who has been under the sun for a long time.”

will walk my dogs tomorrow. will cook again, went groceries shopping today.

and gym, which i starved myself for, only to be back at square one because i just indulged in some great microwavable food and potato chips. haha.

by the way, i am trying to come up with a Christmas wish-list.

this is one of them.

i would love to type out a whole lot of words. but i am too tired to, that is what 30 mins on the treadmill does to me.

by the way, i need to definitely take some time off to clean my room. dirty clothes and clothes with tag lying on the floor. bags and bags full of stuff line the wall. clean clothes stuffed to my closet’s greatest capability. makeup stuffed to my drawer’s greatest capability.  bags and magazine chucked in between everywhere. you get the picture right? you hav to see it to believe it. okay, i will pack, i will, i promise. fingers crossed. * =)

alright,,, later…

Collection 10

Today’s goal is to stuff myself with food because tomorrow marks the day of intense work out and dieting.

I realised its time for me to lose some weight to kick off school on a good start.

I am really really tired but all the food is my stomach is keeping me awake, so basically i am forced to watch some silly show on channel 5.

my things are disappearing once again. and i am feeling so guilty because my room is in a fucking mess.

3.16am – spent around 4-5 hours working. urgh! exhausted!

( “do you want me to make some breakfast for you, Kit?”

“my name is not Kit, my name is Sweet Pea”

“Oh ya, I’m sorry Sweet Pea”

“my name is not Kit” (sulk) )

XOXO

Shatricia, Madeline, Cyntherea

went for new paper new face 2009 finals. it felt kind of great, to see familiar faces again.

most importantly, on the way home, i looked out of the cab and saw a really horrible looking sky. it was omg scary. it almost looked like its the end of the world, couldnt take my eyes off it, fearing its the last moment of my life. i certainly dont wanna die now, i mean, i dont even know what life is truly like yet. you know? i am only this terribly young. i dont appreciate the dark sky scaring me like that. well, it certainly made me appreciate things a tiny bit more. really, i mean it.

okay, back to the new face topic, Kumar was hilarious! this year’s batch consists of really good looking girls, although some of them looked oddly similar and i found out that some the girls tried last year but didnt get in. Wenjia showed up in one of my dresses, which was really nice. Love Shatricia and Cyntherea like always.

so, a year has passed, have i gotten wiser?

head right back to work after i got home.

really hungry now! so i can’t wait for tomorrow but i don’t wanna wake up early for WORK! but i must say i have a really good job. =) will try and settle all that i have to do tomorrow. wish me luck.

have to wake up really early tomorrow. my dark circles are already so dark that my YSL could hardly conceal them, guess the ysl will just have to work harder. good night!

I have always been a fan of YSL makeup, especially Touche Éclat Radiant Touch Highlighter.

It is simply the most amazing thing on earth.

But! guess what! They are going to withdraw all YSL makeup from Singapore departmental stores.

So ladies, hurry up and grab them from  Tangs Orchard from now till 23 October.

While stocks last. No, i don’t work for them. i am just being nice and telling you! ha!

alrighty, i went there today, everything that i wanted was out of stock. so basically, i ended up with a Clinque Sunblock. wtf right. never mind, will be back again, before 23rd.

i have so much to say. includes. Halloween. what should i be for Halloween?

i really don’t know, should i go sexy – Wonderwoman-esque? or cute – tutu dress/ballerina? or fierce – dracula/devil/belly-dancer? or… hmm…

i need to get back to work now. so many things, so little time.

going to new paper new face finals this thursday, for sure. cannot believe it is that time of the year again. amazing.

later!

Christmas came early for me today. I was truly excited for the juicer, haven’t been that surprised and excited in a long time. Reminds me that it is the little things that count. Remember the post i written about what i want for Christmas this year? Walked out of my room and there it was. nice! so, i couldn’t wait to try it, so i went down and bought some fruits. Below is a picture of my Apple-Pineapple-Orange juice. yummy! I will need to start thinking about what i want for Christmas again. i have one in my mind, WOODEN UTENSILS!

So i also mentioned cooking and making some delicious stuff for Mid-Autumn Festival, below is a picture of what i made for my family. really really yummy, actually i just had that for dinner. which of course ruined my diet plan. now i need to start doing sit-ups, seriously. alright, not in the mood for anymore exercising or typing.

Good Night People On Earth!